day 40.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

wow its 2010 already?

I went to a concert with my friends,

got beer and wine spilt all over me.

Went to ihop and ate a massive amount of food and just brought in the new year with my favorite people. things I will remember about last year.

1. I graduated from high school.

2. I turned the lamest number-19.

3. was kissed for the first time.

4. Made amazing friends.

5. started college and balanced two jobs.

6. Learned to trust slowly.

day 39.

photo day in Fredricksburg.

I love how my two best friends and I can just drive and take pictures and not think twice about pulling our cameras out just about anywhere.

thank you both :)

day 38.

Jessica Amber.

Filled with so much beauty and love.

she follows her dreams and lives to set new ones. 
adventures and plans find there way to her. 
As if they found a pure heart to admire. 

She lights up the room with her smile, or maybe its that she is extremely loud. 
she is one of my best friends. Whats admiring is her beauty on how she views life and how creativity is such a huge part of her. I envy her love for life as well as her desire to dream and to live life with endless possibilities.




hold on to your dreams love,
when you allow your dreams to be set aside or do not pursue what you love
it becomes as a bird with mutilated wing confined while knowing there is a vast sky above him.
you my friend can do anything. 
The sky is yours. 
spread your winds and discover all that is out there. Do not allow limitations to block your dreams. 
The sky is never ending nor is your imagination and your potential.

day 37.

I love them.

they make my day.

day 36.

"Oh the weather outside is frightful, But the fire is so delightful, And since we've no place to go  Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!"

yeah right not here in texas. 

day 35.

my best friend. :)

I really have enjoyed spending most of my winter break with him.

He is in the airforce and is one of the funniest, dumbest people I know. Yet he really is my best friend.

good luck to you kid. I am praying for you.

day 34.

my family celebrates Christmas on Christmas eve. My dad thinks it has to do with being Mexican. :)

so Christmas day we are left to open the gifts that we did not convince our parents to open the morning before and to find something productive to do.

My brother and I had a bubble gum blowing contest, which I owned but my face in the picture does  not look pretty.

So ill put his up. :)

day 33.

merry christmas!
last year I was so sick I did not get out of bed for christmas eve or christmas day and even days after that.
So this year it was a treat to be able to join the family again.
Three things I loved this year.
1. new camera. (took  tons of pictures so could not decide which to upload)
2. having 6 baby cousins around.
3. My crazy famiy

day 32

this made me a bit annoyed. Guess which one is mine?

day 31.

day 30.

so I have been up for over 24 hours.

Its getting closer to 30.

I could not sleep last night. It is an exgaration to say I got an hour of sleep.

My best friends and I got into a bit of trouble. Lets say it involved running from the cops and... well we can leave it at that.

Plus one of my best guy friends told me he still had feeling for me, which was an uncomfortable thing to hear. I thought I was over all of that.

Apparently not, I am having to re-dig up emotions as well as figure out what I want. But more importantly what Is the right thing to do, and what is God's plan. I wish it was easier but I am not one to show emotions or allow myself to trust or like someone.

I keep thinking to myself I do like him but then again I am afraid to lose his friendship if anything happened.

It would be so much easier if he was not in the marines.

This post will be fun to look back to in a few months and see what happened.

right now I am stressed and really torn.

I wish it was easier.

But like he told me,

The things that are most important or that you love are worth fighting for.

or something along those lines.

Sorry bud I do not make anything easy for anyone.

day 29

today was our Christmas party for chick fil-a.

We all went and spent the day at sea world.

It was actually quite fun.

I can not believe I have already worked there over a year now.

Wow so much has changed since last year.

day 28.

day 27.

tonight we went a wedding.

My family and I's youngest daughter got married. It was really nice to see all of our old friends and be able to fellowship with them.



these pictures are really bad quality but I had to take them with my phone. 
It was a neat idea instead of cake, to have all of the women 

that have been in her life, make cupcakes.
I want to do something similar when and if I get married.

day 26.

day 25.

I am so ready for Christmas season to come and pass.

work has been really busy, stressful and tiring.

I do love all the lights though. That is one thing I am really enjoying.

day 24.

I have really enjoyed having an Einstein in San Antonio.

I have found my self going to the back on the other side of town, or purposely going shopping near by just so I have an excuse to grab a bagel. :)

day 23.

Not sure what to talk about today.

so I will just post my picture of me eating drinking apple sauce from a jar.

I was hungry that's all.

day 22.

I Spent  over 4 hours on ichat with one of my friends last night. I finally got into bed around 5ish.

I had not talked to her in months so it was defiantly an over needed thing.

I love how there are some friends that you can go with out seeing or talking to for months but once you finally do, nothing as changed.

I love being able to be honest with a person, knowing they will not judge you. It is nice to be able to tell someone anything about you, and know they are listening and understanding,

even if I can only type it to them and not verbally speak it.

This upcoming year I am going to get better at talking, and try to "share my feelings" more. What I am really trying to say is that I am going to learn to trust.

look at how many pictures we took during our chat. As well as a few videos.

day 21.

I really had a great weekend.

Its been awhile since I have had one such as this one.

especially getting to even just text people,

with work and school, I hardly get the chance.

day 20.

This summer two of my best friends both joined the military. One the Marines and the other the Air force. It really has been a experience having them away and in different branches of the military. Today my best friend graduated from basic training. While I had to wake up at 5:45 during Christmas break, sit outside in the freezing, wet morning, I really had an amazing day. I loved being introduced as his "best friend Amy." As well as meeting him mom, getting to see his living quarters and just getting to spend the day with him.
I am really learning a lot right now in life. 
 especially when it comes to friendships as well as following your dreams but allowing God to change those dreams.



I am so proud of you bud, 
thanks for being a great friend to me, and putting up with me. :) 

God, 
please protect both of these boys. (I am sorry I mean men, well please help them to become men of your word.) Help them to continue follow you. Guide them and oh PLEASE, do protect them. Thank you for bringing these two in my life, you know how much I needed their friendship. 

day 19.

I am in love with this weather we are having here in San Antonio.

If everything goes well I should be in Colorado already by this time next year-

loving the snow.

day 18.

I love this kid. 

I really would have not traded getting to spend another year at home with him for anything!

day 17.

As I close one door another door opens.

God please open a new door in my life, 

you know which one I am talking about. :)

thanks for helping me with the first semester of college

and showing me how you have your hand in everything. 

help me not to stray from your path and your will.

I am open and willing. :)

day 16.

day 15.

Do you think I am ready for christmas?

I love this weather we are having.

If only it would snow!

It was so funny when everyone thought it would snow the other day,

and of course it didn't.

Remember when we were little and we would count down till Christmas? 

My family always bought a calendar such as this one in the picture.

day 14

Finished project.

didnt come out as I had planned.

but sadly I am now done with photography.

No clue how I am going to handle that.

day 13

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSI!!

 

 

I love my friends.

I love that we all carry our camera's with us,

and do not think twice before pulling them out and taking loads of pictures,

we have to pull over because we can not stop ourselves from laughing.

We make lists about everything.

I love that they are honest with me, and I

can be honest with them in return.

I love that we can just drive around laughing and have

a great time doing so.

I do not know what I will do with out these two girls,

some of the only girls I get along with, and can be around

all the time.

I am really happy with my life right now.

day 12

day 11.

When I was little I used to be so envious of the kids that had a "normal" family.
Yes my family does consist of two parents and siblings. I wanted a family with extended family, to be exact I wanted grandparents. 

My grandpa died when I was around the age of 1. Although I remember him so well or perhaps some of these memories have been retold. 
He was a rough old man, who had been sick for many years. I was the youngest grandchild at the time, therefor I was favored. It is funny how there are certain things you never forget about a person, or there are other things that always come to mind about a person. 
My grandfather planted a orange tree in my grandma's front yard. I have heard stories that my family had doubts it would grow because it is in the front yard and almost under a roof.
All of this to say it was not believed that this tree would "prosper." 


As you can see that was not the case. Each year there are more and more oranges on this tree. Such a blessing. 

My grandfather was an amazing man, and I never even met him. You want to know why I think he is amazing? because from what I remember and what I was told. He was loved by many and he was just a real person. 
I want to be a person that is not remembered but that is not forgotten, if you can follow me.
 I am not determined to plant a seed and have it prosper such as my grandma's orange tree but I want my life to have fruit to it. 

Galatians 6:7

"...for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap."

day 10.

Decided the web cam was going to have to work for today.

I am exhausted,

and feeling a bit melancholy. (yeah I suppose thats the word.) 

I woke up at 4 to take my mom and my sister to the airport but I was also waiting for a friend to call, which he never did. 

I could really use some sleep right now. 

day 9.

it feels like lately a drop of anything can go so far. 

An extra minute in bed,

Another dollar here and there.

A nice comment every now and then. 

or a short visit with a friend. 

You get the idea. 

I think when time is so scarce,

you finally realize what little things mean so much. 

My time is consumed with work, and a dabble of school.

Pulling two jobs is never what I would have thought

I would have done my first semester of college. 

I am thankful for the few times I have been able to 

have some fun,or hang out with a friend.

God, 

please give me strength and gratefulness this week.

Help me to know this is your plan for me right now. 

Thank you for the time I have, even when I am too busy

complaining. 

-amy

day 8.

My prayer mirror,

Day 7.

I love good days.

Day 6.

She is beautiful and smart. One of the strongest people I have met.

Courage and creativity are not the only qualities that make her amazing. Her love for life and adventure makes anyone want to be around her.

who is she you ask?

She is my friend- Anna Bibb.

I love this girl.

She makes me smile. I love that we dont have to be out, but we can even just sit on her couch and have a great time.

She is one of my favorite people.

day 5.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Today I am thankful for my huge family, and the fact that it keeps getting bigger and bigger each year.  6 baby cousins within this year alone, more on the way next year.

I am  thankful for my amazing friends but I am also thankful for mash potatoes and pie.

my two favorite guys.
I really have had a blast getting to know them, as well as have them around. They have been really great friends. I love them both as if they were my brothers. It was such a great day to be able to see them together. I am so proud of them both. They are in my prayers and I am excited to see what God has planned for their lives.

Day 4.

I Thought today was going to be my day off this week but I ended up working all day instead.

I did however get to see a whole bunch of friends I had not seen in months because of my job on Sunday now. It was nice to sit around the fire and eat chocolate and watch them eat s'mores.

It made me realize how much I miss being apart of some people's lives as well as how much I need to invest in others.

My goals for the year keep getting longer.

day 3

The camera guy told me. "Good luck trying to find film for those cameras, I would just put them in a time capsule and hold on to them. But good luck developing the pictures."

WOW that makes me feel great. I really want to take more pictures and go back to film as well.

We will see if I accomplish that this year.

Day 2.

True beauty is rare.

I was thinking about beauty today and realized that those who I see beautiful is not an actor or a model but those people around me.

I have a friend who is beautiful and even though she does not see it, I do. I love being around her because of that. She is beautiful inside and out.

I have a friend who is like a grandmother to me and she is one of my favorite people ever. She has been sick the last few years, and even thought she may not always be well, and she may feel so doesn't look all that great, I find her stunning.

Today and work this guy who loves to pick on me said "just because you are beautiful does not give you the right to be rude." That saying just made me laugh. The reality of that saying makes me question the meaning. Some times people are blinded my beauty and not realizing the inner beauty that is not evident.

what is the true meaning of beauty? and who determines what and who is beautiful?
I struggled why beauty all my life, to come to find out that what is beautiful is not universal but its perceived different by everyone.

day 1.

one way. 
several choices. 
and many temptations. 
taking the wrong turn 
is anticipated

but not something to be repeated.

making a u-turn
is even more of a struggle. 
Finding the right way is worth 
the discomfort that may come.
The journey is bumpy and path is narrow,

but it is worth every minute.