day 30.

so I have been up for over 24 hours.

Its getting closer to 30.

I could not sleep last night. It is an exgaration to say I got an hour of sleep.

My best friends and I got into a bit of trouble. Lets say it involved running from the cops and... well we can leave it at that.

Plus one of my best guy friends told me he still had feeling for me, which was an uncomfortable thing to hear. I thought I was over all of that.

Apparently not, I am having to re-dig up emotions as well as figure out what I want. But more importantly what Is the right thing to do, and what is God's plan. I wish it was easier but I am not one to show emotions or allow myself to trust or like someone.

I keep thinking to myself I do like him but then again I am afraid to lose his friendship if anything happened.

It would be so much easier if he was not in the marines.

This post will be fun to look back to in a few months and see what happened.

right now I am stressed and really torn.

I wish it was easier.

But like he told me,

The things that are most important or that you love are worth fighting for.

or something along those lines.

Sorry bud I do not make anything easy for anyone.